This winter has been one for the record books, it has been one of the wettest I can remember. It is wonderful for the drought that has plague the northern California and Nevada for so long but has left me in a “funk.”
I don’t know if I should toss it up to the weather or the fact I made some life changing decision that was not easy or coming to terms with my changing physical health but for the last few months I have had to continually give my self pep talks and pray like I had never before. This is not like me, this funk,this no energy or wanting to embrace the seasons in my life. Then as I was reflecting on these feelings this morning I realized that perhaps yes a lot has happened the last few months and yes this “funk” is with me but it wont define me. So I acknowledge my “funk” that I am in and even validate it and that’s when I truly feel so much better. I realize I was not extending grace to myself. I have not validated my feelings that I had been feeling, I guess I did not want to admit them.
Pep talks and prayer do work but for me the time I chose to be still and reflect giving grace to myself is when the winter of my soul began to thaw and heal. I do embrace this season in my life, it has been hard but that’s when the most growth happens. I needed this winter of quite and reflection so I am for my spring, when ever that may be.
Just like this winter has been one for the record books so has this time in my life.
Wow! What an incredible blog. You had me in tears and then in awe. I read it to your dad and he was speechless. You are a powerful writer.
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